I have given over 100 dollars to homeless people in my life.
I haven't read a book since middle school.
I believe God is light.
I live with my mom currently, so I can save money.
I eat a box of Mike and Ikes a day.
I rarely listen to rap music anymore.
I have never owned a pair of Jordan sneakers.
I smoke weed for my anxiety.
I haven't been to the club in over 2 years.
I rarely drink alcohol.
I don't give a shit about politics.
I am a free spirit.
I am out of shape.
I love sushi. So says my onesie.
I believe in the power of miracles.
I still watch 90s cartoons.
I have no real friends. I have a family.
I like who I am.
"I have grown up a lot over the last year. I'm over the bullshit. You wont catch me "turning up". I do mostly everything in moderation. I cut my drinking down to almost 0. Transitioned from several blunts a day to a bowl pack or two. Stopped smoking cigarettes, thank the lord. As life became better, I became more restless. There is a continuous feeling of impending doom. A feeling of un-fulfillment. We will never know when we are going to die. I learned to face it. Some of us never really live. I am not scared of dying. I am afraid of dying before I can leave my legacy. I am afraid that the people I care about will suffer. I am afraid of not being there for them. I am afraid of dying and being worthless. I wrote this song to try and cope with that feeling. It didn't bring me much relief in the long term but when I am listening to the song, I feel my purpose. We all want to know what people really think about us. We all want to be able to come back from the dead and see our impact. Unfortunately, we cannot. But we can write songs that may live forever. I'll just leave it in the hands of the lord. I'm going to smile til' I feel alright. Bless."
