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So I wrote this article after the event that ensued (read below to find out what my story is about). At that time (when I first wrote this story) I felt mad and disappointed by what happened. I wanted to write about the experience because I thought that many guys can relate to getting curved (rejected) and such. To be quite honest anyone can relate to feeling down and out after getting rejected. Also I thought it would be nice for the readers to see that a male doesn’t mind writing about how he truly feels when his emotional defense barrier is low.
I didn’t explain this story in detail and maybe I should have but at the time that I was writing this, I didn’t really consider those minor details that would make my story flow nicely. So after reading a few comments made by the reader “Bunny” I decided to rewrite this article (well just add more details that I should of added in the first place) to better explain my story. I don’t really regret writing this article because I honestly think that expressing your feelings can be beneficial to your state of mind. Shout out to the people that can relate to my story! Anyways enjoy this edition of Young Nigga Mentality.
As I wrote this article, let me point out that I felt some type of way *Rich Homie Quan voice*. I somewhat got curved and I lost twenty bucks that I could of used as lunch money for work! :( Maybe me writing this edition of YNM was petty (yea this was pretty, laughs) but FUCK IT BREH I ALREADLY WROTE IT ABOUT A WEEK AGO WEEK AGO!
If Ariel happens to come across this article, I want her to know that I’m truly sorry because she is an awesome person but I had to get this off my chest. This little event makes me think of other incidents that I have had with women that doesn’t make me want to engage into a romantic relationship at this current moment. What I mean by other incidents with women, are those types of situations where you have high hopes of getting into a relationship with a girl that you really like and things don’t work out. Also the type of scenarios where you think you’re going to get laid but that doesn’t happen (just being honest though).
So I’m in the car with Ariel and we were just having a general conversation on our way back from Wal-Mart. We went out to Wal-Mart because she wanted to get stuff etc. The conversation was going good until she made the comment about me never finding a girlfriend because I didn’t know how to navigate the GPS on her phone. I wasn’t really mad about that comment but in response, I said something to the effect of (again not my exact words but it went like this); “Can I get a kiss if I get us to our destination without me messing up with the directions”? Her response was, “Sorry but I already kissed someone at the con (anime convention)” (I saw her a few days prior at Otakon). That comment lowkey made me mad and let me explain why. I was invited to come see her and I was told to meet her in a hotel room. I’m a 21 year old male and she an 25 year old female (I think she is 25, I would have to ask her) and in my mind if a female is inviting you to come to a hotel room (especially a female that is more mature age wise) then I assume that we are going to do something sexual. Sorry maybe I’m immature for thinking that but I would assume that many other people would most likely have the same mindset given they were in my shoes. “Wait Taiwan that still doesn’t give you the right to think that you’re getting a kiss or getting laid at all (just waiting for the female readers to come at my neck).” True but let me explain something.
Now I have been talking to Ariel for quite some time and maybe at one point she kind of digged me or maybe I misread the texts and the conversations that we had. If I misread how I thought she felt about me then that’s my fault. The really shit part was, when I was driving home, I started thinking about the other crappy experiences that I had with some women. Eh maybe this is karma or something because I’m not a saint by any means and there has been situations where I could of dealt with women better. I should have considered their feelings in some of those matters but I didn’t. Also I lost 20 dollars when first traveling to Ariel’s hotel via a pay toll. I had no idea that I had to use a pay toll prior to going to Ariel’s hotel. Me losing 20 dollars really left me in a so so mood beforehand so I was hoping that I would of gotten a kiss or gotten laid to make me feel better about losing 20 dollars (what type of fucking sense does that make, well I don’t fucking know). I’m a broke college student, I’m very weird about my money *laughs*. I didn’t ask her to give me back 20 dollars because why would I? I’m pretty sure that she had no clue that I would have to go through a pay toll to first see her.
How does losing 20 dollars equate with my story? It doesn’t really, I was just pissed that I lost 20 dollars. Have you ever been in a situation when something bad happens to you then another bad random thing happens to you and it makes you even madder? Well bingo that’s where the 20 dollars come in. Even if losing 20 bucks wasn’t a part of the story, I would have still felt mad and disappointed that I didn’t get a kiss and also the fact that we didn’t do anything.
On my way to Ariel’s hotel room I did think that something was going to happen. Once I started to hang out with her I realized that nothing was going to happen unless an opportunity were to appear. When in the car with Ariel on the way back from Wal-Mart once she made the remark about me never finding a girlfriend because I didn’t know how to navigate the GPS on her phone, I then took it upon myself to seize the opportunity but that didn’t work out well for me. My intentions weren’t the best and I should have added this in the original article but my thoughts and actions changed when we were hanging out so I wasn’t really lying about not expecting a kiss or sex when the opportunity wasn’t there. Once the opportunity appeared well. We as humans change are minds a lot don’t we?
I have come to realize that I should focus on college and focus on being a better person before I try to engage in anything women related that includes romance for the time being. I’m not where I need to be at the moment (maturity wise, financially, and emotionally) to be dealing with relationships at the current moment. Honestly it’s ok to feel this way.
At the end of the day, Ariel is a great girl and is a really wonderful person. I’m not mad her by at means. I don’t expect her to be cool with this article but hey what can a young nigga do.
I enjoy writing these Young Nigga Mentality articles and I will continue to (as long as Darrell lets me put these on the site and as long as I’m not lazy) write these pieces. I do apologize to the readers for writing a half assed article because if you look at my line of work (on this site) most of my articles are detailed in some nature, I guess I didn’t really care with this one until someone pointed it out to me. I honestly liked the 1st version of this edition though; imperfection can be perfection in some cases. Bunny motived me to finish a half assed draft that I made, so thank you Bunny! I will try my best not to send out lack luster articles in the future that relate to telling a story.
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So I wrote this article after the event that ensued (read below to find out what my story is about). At that time (when I first wrote this story) I felt mad and disappointed by what happened. I wanted to write about the experience because I thought that many guys can relate to getting curved (rejected) and such. To be quite honest anyone can relate to feeling down and out after getting rejected. Also I thought it would be nice for the readers to see that a male doesn’t mind writing about how he truly feels when his emotional defense barrier is low.
I didn’t explain this story in detail and maybe I should have but at the time that I was writing this, I didn’t really consider those minor details that would make my story flow nicely. So after reading a few comments made by the reader “Bunny” I decided to rewrite this article (well just add more details that I should of added in the first place) to better explain my story. I don’t really regret writing this article because I honestly think that expressing your feelings can be beneficial to your state of mind. Shout out to the people that can relate to my story! Anyways enjoy this edition of Young Nigga Mentality.
As I wrote this article, let me point out that I felt some type of way *Rich Homie Quan voice*. I somewhat got curved and I lost twenty bucks that I could of used as lunch money for work! :( Maybe me writing this edition of YNM was petty (yea this was pretty, laughs) but FUCK IT BREH I ALREADLY WROTE IT ABOUT A WEEK AGO WEEK AGO!
If Ariel happens to come across this article, I want her to know that I’m truly sorry because she is an awesome person but I had to get this off my chest. This little event makes me think of other incidents that I have had with women that doesn’t make me want to engage into a romantic relationship at this current moment. What I mean by other incidents with women, are those types of situations where you have high hopes of getting into a relationship with a girl that you really like and things don’t work out. Also the type of scenarios where you think you’re going to get laid but that doesn’t happen (just being honest though).
So I’m in the car with Ariel and we were just having a general conversation on our way back from Wal-Mart. We went out to Wal-Mart because she wanted to get stuff etc. The conversation was going good until she made the comment about me never finding a girlfriend because I didn’t know how to navigate the GPS on her phone. I wasn’t really mad about that comment but in response, I said something to the effect of (again not my exact words but it went like this); “Can I get a kiss if I get us to our destination without me messing up with the directions”? Her response was, “Sorry but I already kissed someone at the con (anime convention)” (I saw her a few days prior at Otakon). That comment lowkey made me mad and let me explain why. I was invited to come see her and I was told to meet her in a hotel room. I’m a 21 year old male and she an 25 year old female (I think she is 25, I would have to ask her) and in my mind if a female is inviting you to come to a hotel room (especially a female that is more mature age wise) then I assume that we are going to do something sexual. Sorry maybe I’m immature for thinking that but I would assume that many other people would most likely have the same mindset given they were in my shoes. “Wait Taiwan that still doesn’t give you the right to think that you’re getting a kiss or getting laid at all (just waiting for the female readers to come at my neck).” True but let me explain something.
Now I have been talking to Ariel for quite some time and maybe at one point she kind of digged me or maybe I misread the texts and the conversations that we had. If I misread how I thought she felt about me then that’s my fault. The really shit part was, when I was driving home, I started thinking about the other crappy experiences that I had with some women. Eh maybe this is karma or something because I’m not a saint by any means and there has been situations where I could of dealt with women better. I should have considered their feelings in some of those matters but I didn’t. Also I lost 20 dollars when first traveling to Ariel’s hotel via a pay toll. I had no idea that I had to use a pay toll prior to going to Ariel’s hotel. Me losing 20 dollars really left me in a so so mood beforehand so I was hoping that I would of gotten a kiss or gotten laid to make me feel better about losing 20 dollars (what type of fucking sense does that make, well I don’t fucking know). I’m a broke college student, I’m very weird about my money *laughs*. I didn’t ask her to give me back 20 dollars because why would I? I’m pretty sure that she had no clue that I would have to go through a pay toll to first see her.
How does losing 20 dollars equate with my story? It doesn’t really, I was just pissed that I lost 20 dollars. Have you ever been in a situation when something bad happens to you then another bad random thing happens to you and it makes you even madder? Well bingo that’s where the 20 dollars come in. Even if losing 20 bucks wasn’t a part of the story, I would have still felt mad and disappointed that I didn’t get a kiss and also the fact that we didn’t do anything.
I have come to realize that I should focus on college and focus on being a better person before I try to engage in anything women related that includes romance for the time being. I’m not where I need to be at the moment (maturity wise, financially, and emotionally) to be dealing with relationships at the current moment. Honestly it’s ok to feel this way.
At the end of the day, Ariel is a great girl and is a really wonderful person. I’m not mad her by at means. I don’t expect her to be cool with this article but hey what can a young nigga do.
I enjoy writing these Young Nigga Mentality articles and I will continue to (as long as Darrell lets me put these on the site and as long as I’m not lazy) write these pieces. I do apologize to the readers for writing a half assed article because if you look at my line of work (on this site) most of my articles are detailed in some nature, I guess I didn’t really care with this one until someone pointed it out to me. I honestly liked the 1st version of this edition though; imperfection can be perfection in some cases. Bunny motived me to finish a half assed draft that I made, so thank you Bunny! I will try my best not to send out lack luster articles in the future that relate to telling a story.
(This song goes hard. I don't know what Jessica was talking about)
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