“The hybrid of a house nigga(er) and a field nigga(er)”-GaijinT (Let's push the limits, S/O Darrell, the readers and everyone on Blerdsonline!)

“The hybrid of a house nigga(er) and a field nigga(er)”

I’m a hybrid of a house nigger and field nigger,

I like fucking ugly to semi ok looking white bitches when I have the opportunity to do so,

Looks aren’t that important,

I just appreciate them fucking with me for being me and for that I love them as people,

On the other side I’m cursing the white man and their population,

I feel like a radical,

But I know that shit will leave me dead so I have to dress for the old white man,

I’m conflicted,

I code switch to blend it,

Standing out is too dangerous,

Black pride forever but I hate some blacks who have wronged their own people,

I’m no better because I’m one of them,

Now a days I try to change my foolish ways but I see some blacks who haven’t progressed,

Who the fuck am I to judge though,

I’m a dirty nigger who is both a house nigger and field nigger,

Not really accepted by either party,

So I thrive in the darkness,

Just writing my sorrows,

I feel ashamed that I can’t support my people fully,

But when they criticized us,

When I hear them criticize us,

They always criticize us,

It makes my blood boil,

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO JUDGE US?!?

You and your population has us FUCKED UP!

But,

I’m a hybrid of a house nigger and field nigger,

I don’t believe in picking sides,

But I pick sides when I feel as though it’s convenient,

I’m not shit but my redeeming quality,

Is, that I continue to live and search for self- enlightenment,

But,

Right now,

I will continue to be a hybrid of, 

A house,

And,

Field,

Nigger.

-GaijinT